Broken Heart

And when you’ve lost hope
You know it is all pointless
Because nothing matters now
Yet,
A light flickers on
Casting mocking shadows
Leaving you unsure.
What exactly does life want?
Why dangle such ideas in front of your tired eyes?
It all happened in another life
So why can’t you get over it?
Take a step away,
Move on with your life
And smile…
Why the overthinking then?
Where you can’t help but wonder
Is this all a sign perhaps?
Like lightening and thunder?
Constant hints of care and love
The flame filling you with warmth
But just as subtle and sweet
To never lead you on.
So is it all a hoax
Cooked up in your mind
Because your heart would not believe
There’s nothing in between the lines?
So you play the fool
To console your heart
And convince yourself
To play the part.
You yearn for that comfort
You aren’t even sure you will get,
Thirsty for the love
You think he’s reserved for someone else.
So then;
Why the hope,
The fluttering of the heart?
Why the pain, of a broken heart?
You know it is never to be
This is not a love story,
Yet you want to believe
That things are different
And just maybe…
For how long can you do this though?
Hours, days, weeks?
Because you’re breaking from within
Don’t you see?
Let it go
Finally
You’re almost free,
And just when you’ve lost hope
A light flickers on…

 

-TM

Beat

Dim the lights
Soften the mood
In the darkness
Listen.
Beat…
You hear it?
Only your heart
Beating
Slowly,
Steadily.
The sound fills your ears
In the deafening silence
Beat…
One after the other
Sustaining your being.

Dim the lights please
All of them
Blind
Suddenly
All you see is black
Black outside,
Black within?
Fear.
A cold shiver.
Does it beat faster?
Your heart?
Do you feel it now?
Increasing tempo…
Each passing second
Waiting in anticipation
Thinking
Again
And again.
Is it really an option though?
Life is wonderful.
Will you give it up so easily?

Dim the lights
Better yet
Shut them off
Let the darkness seep in
Slowly
Filling up every nook every corner
The hollow within you
Let it rejoice
Let it overflow with this darkness
Feeding on it.
Hold on though
Don’t loose yourself yet
Giving up is not an option.
See that ray?
That ray within you?
Keep it close.

Have you shut the lights?
Now stand alone.
Wait.
Do nothing
Just feel,
Your heart
Your breath
Your life
You.
Don’t you see?
You are important to us
You matter to us
You are worth a lot to us.
That heartbeat of yours is music to your parent’s ears
Those eyes of yours reflect the beauty within your soul
That radiant smile of yours lights up the day of strangers
The kind and caring personality of yours warms the hearts of many.
See?
We’re talking about you.
You,
My love
Are all that this world needs.
So feel that spark within you,
Let it crack through the darkness
Like lightening,
Let it spring out
Breaking through your shell.
Blind the world with your light,
Your energy
Let it only spread love and happiness
This world might become a better place.

 

 

-TM

To him

I hear a name
He calls out again
Just a letter
That’s the most I can hear
I search around
For him
Again he calls
And I stumble forward
‘A’ that’s the letter I hear
My footsteps quicken
Forward I walk
His melodious voice rings through the air for the third time
Now my heart stops
It isn’t my name that he calls
‘A’ was just another letter amongst it
My steps turn
Backwards into the darkness
Where I am meant to belong
For he’s never going to see me for who I am
For he’s always going to be oblivious to my presence
These thoughts somehow cracking my heart open
Leaving it in two pieces
One that belongs to me
The other that’ll always belong to him…
-TM

The Fallen Angel

I fell

Endless

The ground now visible below me

Came crashing up to greet me,

I looked up from where I had come

Hardly able to recognize the place anymore

The place that I called home

As it was hidden

Hidden behind the haze of the clouds

Hidden behind the sights of mortals

 

I fell

Crashing onto earth

The place where people roamed free

But what I saw

Were caged animals

Carefully conditioned to follow a path.

Their destination was unimportant

In the long run

Nothing mattered

But they were adamant beings

Mortals of higher intelligence

And what they perceived

Their superiority over all.

 

I fell

Onto a land

Marred by chaos.

Emotions flared around me

And words were thrown randomly,

Opinions blared

From trumpets unseen

Followed by arguments and tantrums

That helped nobody.

Victory is ours!

I heard one shout,

Their’s was the victory

Who could still shout.

 

I fell

In beauty

Unlike the one above

And I watched it be destroyed

By mortals who couldn’t love.

Their lands were barren

Their hearts were cold

They cared for nothing around

Except themselves and their gold.

 

I fell

Into an immaterial world

Which was driven by materials

I fell,

And how I wish I didn’t land…

 

-TM